Hello Kitty glasses, Zara pants, Kamiseta shirt, LV bag, and rings from Girl Shoppe and 168 ☺
I just realized that it’s hard to earn mooolah! >_____________< I miss being a student!
The F Word
Call me what you want: chubby, fat, big-boned, obese, morbidly obese, super fat,mataba, hasky (husky, hehe). But no matter what, this is who I am. I know what my positives are and what my negatives are, and I’ve learned to love myself despite my imperfections. I am beautiful. And I’d rather much be fat and happy than to waste my time thinking of fat as an insult. You’re beautiful too, no matter what shape, size, color. And, you should never waste your time thinking any different. If God made us in his image, why would he ever make us ugly? This is how God made me; and I’m grateful for His blessing because I am beautiful in every way, shape and form.
So if you ever hear someone call you fat or ugly or other hurtful words, just smile. They don’t know who you are; and do you really think you’ll ever see them again at the end of the day? As someone once said, “Those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind.” The words that people say are to cover up their insecurities, so by you standing tall and proud will just make them shrivel up even more inside because they lack the confidence, love, and respect that you have for yourself. Advertisements, TV shows, commercials, music videos, they all show that being a size zero means you’re perfect, but zero isn’t even a number! Here in the Philippines, especially here, being thin is what makes you beautiful. They ridicule people with different body types, body types that don’t show a person’s ribs or flat abs. Society says that fat is bad, skinny is sexy, and sexy is beautiful.
My mother says confidence is what makes a woman sexy, and that’s what makes her beautiful. She taught me how to stand tall and love my voluptuous body. And I do! I love my curves and the fact that I have meat on my bones, and I love to flaunt them. I love to smile and hold my head up high; I have confidence in me — I don’t just feel sexy… I know I’m sexy. And no amount of whispering or making parinig about my weight or my body image will ever affect me. And so here’s what I have to say for those who try to pull me down based on society’s expectations: I may be fat, but you’re ugly, and I can diet.
Falling in and out of love
Falling in love is pretty simple. I mean you get to know the person, find every good aspects about them, know everything there is to know, they’re pretty much perfect in your eyes even If you know all their flaws. But falling out of love is the hardest. You remember and cherish all the memories you shared with that person and no matter how hard you try to let go, you just can’t. It’ll take a huge amount of time, maybe months or even years. It’s different for every person, but for me It takes a very long time. It took me a day to fall in love… and it will take me forever to say goodbye.
My ex-boyfriend, Robin. He is one of the best things that’s ever happened to me. Too bad, things didn’t turn out the way I’ve always imagined and wanted them to be. You know what they say, relationships are like broken glass, it’s better to leave it broken than hurt yourself trying to fix it. Hey, life is too short to live it in misery, right? I hope he finds someone who will go thru what I went through for him, someone who will love him as much as I did (do). I’m pretty sure we’ll be friends again, soon. Robin Dave Paez Torres, you will always have a special place in my heart. Good luck and be happy! :)
TRUST IS VERY IMPORTANT IN A RELATIONSHIP. It’s never my intention to to hurt you but I need this, and I know that you need this too. I miss everything we had, and how we were there for each other through the bad times we’ve experienced. I don’t know what happened to us, I guess we lost our way. People always make mistakes and I know we need more time to heal, to think, to grow, be a better person, a better partner. Let’s both wait patiently for the time we’ll be able to mend our hearts again. I’m sorry this happened to us but I can’t just let the pain disappear. Every time I think about every thing you did to me, and all the promises you broke, it breaks my heart over again and kills me to the core. It pains me to say goodbye, but it’s inevitable. I hope nothing but the best for you. Good bye. I hope this is not forever.
Sometimes I hope we’re still friends when I get married. I hope that I’ll invite you to my wedding and you’ll come. Then you’ll see me as the happiest girl in the world. You’ll see me with a guy who treats me right and loves me more than himself. You’ll see all you could’ve had and you’ll regret letting me go, but the thing I want you to see the most is that I survived without you.
